When I Fall

I was wondering
and thought that maybe if anyone
asked me if I had ever been in love,
I would say no.
I have never been in love and that's the truth.
I may have liked boys, and
I may have loved them, but
I have never ever fallen in love with them.
Sure there's been moments of desire,
but that's lust.
Love and Lust
there's a huge difference between the two words.
I won't try to explain because
you can see there's a difference.

All I can say is that I have never been in love.
I will not try to fall in love any time soon.
When I do fall in love, however, I want to feel
that spark of electricity between me and the person
I will soon fall in love with.
Because then I will see the sign that we were meant to be.

Sure there's been boys who have fallen in love with me
already and they've already confessed,
but if I don't feel it, if I try to force it, then where's the magic in that?

I want to feel magic and exhilaration of being with
someone who will expose me to new things. I don't want to
be held back by those boys who have already fallen for me.
They will only stop my growth.

So when I do fall in love, I want it to be with
someone new,
someone who takes my breath away,
someone who knows how to say that I am beautiful,
someone who says that he likes me and is interested in me first before he says he loves me,
someone who can make me trust him,
someone who can entertain me,
someone who can make me laugh.

When I do fall in love,
I'll feel his impact on me and just know.