LBC #2-Sleepless Nights

I tell myself that I will sleep late and wake up early so that the next night I sleep, I'll just knock out. except that doesn't work. I go to sleep late and it takes me hours to fall asleep so the next day I am sleep deprived.

That sucks. And working makes it even worse. When I want to sleep and take a nap, I can't because I'm working. I have to be awake to help.

Captivation

Could I be attracted to any other
soul other than yours–
whose soul has captivated me when I wasn't looking,
whose soul has lured me in with the deep vibrations of your voice.
Could my soul ever be captured
by another soul other than yours–
whose presence still affects me to this very day,
whose presence has a difficulty leaving.

LBC #1-Abandonment

You can compare so many things to love. Right now I'm helping as cashier at the Karen Marketplace and the owners are having problems. Their partner, the crazy Thai Lady, have simply abandoned them and now they don't have their own license to own a business. The business license is under the the Thai Lady's name and she just left them because, according to her, she won't really benefit from the business.

I feel like I abandoned him, because after we ended, his sister left their family with her boyfriend and he was having trouble with that. What I did set off a series of horrible events to his life and I still kind of feel guilty for that.

That's why after learning how complicated a person's life can be after you leave them, I've decided that I won't purposely try to abandon anyone. I promise to try my best to be in their lives when they need me and try to be always there.

First Love - Adele

So little to say but so much time,
Despite my empty mouth the words are in my mind.
Please wear the face, the one where you smile,
Because you lighten up my heart when I start to cry.

Forgive me first love, but I'm tired.
I need to get away to feel again.
Try to understand why,
don't get so close to change my mind.
Please wipe that look out of your eyes,
it's bribing me to doubt myself;
Simply, it's tiring.

This love has dried up and stayed behind,
And if I stay I'll be a lie
Then choke on words I'd always hide.
Excuse me first love, but we're through.
I need to taste a kiss from someone new.

Forgive me first love, but I'm too tired.
I'm bored to say the least and I, I lack desire.
Forgive me first love,
Forgive me first love,
Forgive me first love,
Forgive me first love,
Forgive me,
Forgive me first love,
Forgive me first love 


This is what I felt before I thought that I would miss him so much.

Gravity- Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do, I still feel you here 'till the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/sara_bareilles/gravity.html ]
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I
Try to make you see that you're
Everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I
Can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
You're keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah
You're onto me, onto me and all over

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

Fall in Love with Me!

If you fall in love with me, this is what you'll fall in love with.

Someone who:

1) talks before she think because she's truly honest and she won't find anything wrong with it

2) will make you go eat ice cream with her

3) will spend most of her free time watching shows she needs to catch up on

4) Or read a book

5) says "ku-choo!" whenever you surprise her

6) will always look up to you

7) will blab about random things

8) sing songs stuck in her head

9) pretend to be listening to other people when it's not necessarily important

10) doesn't really care about how her living environment appears

11) is afraid of piranhas in the sky and in the bed

12) looooooves roller coasters

13) is afraid of caterpillars

14) will not go with you into the bathroom to listen to you vomit

15) will make you walk in the snow during a blizzard

16) turns on the car radio

17) will complain about the way your hair looks if it looks weird

18) drinks hot cocoa and coffee and thai tea and all of those other drinks

19) cries when she gets too mad and has no idea what to say anymore

20) cries during sad parts in romantic comedies

21) will not cry during heartbreaking things

22) will most possibly make you a hat to match hers

23) will flick your forehead when you’re wrong

25) will take you to her church and make you sit with her during the loooooong service

27) complains about too strong smells

29) falls for sarcasm

30) laughs at herself

31) will most likely fall in love with you too.

You have Caught my Soul

I've caught hold
of something that makes me happy,
something that has awoken me
from the deep sleep I had been in and it was you.
It was your presence
that re-caught my soul blindly.
It was  your presence
that brought me back to you
and I certainly have missed you.
When I saw a shooting star,
I had wished for love-
with you.
I'm finally falling back in love
with you
and I have no idea how you feel.