Much of an Impact

She guesses that sometimes
a person's first love can be
with someone
they don't want it to be with,
but
it happened anyways and he's made
so much of an impact in her life
that she still can't forget him.

Imperfect Acts

When she saw you
her mind told her heart to be
stoic,
her heart listened and pretended
to be calm so that her act
would be true.
But her knees quavered
and her breathing flew
like a bird flying from fear.

Witholding the Risk

She doesn't understand
if she was really in love
with you,
or if she was only forcing it.
She really can't see what love is,
but now she keeps seeing you
and maybe
she's just crazy,
maybe she just wants
to be reminded of the risk
she put to be with you.
But she can't risk it anymore.
That rumor regarding her
broke her.
She's scared and right now
it hurts not to be with you,
but she knows this:
She's lying to you
to keep her parents from discovering.
She lied to her parents when
she risked love with you
and
she hated that.
So please be patient
to her. Please.

Invite Yourself In

Why must you invite
yourself into her mind?
She tried to push you out
but the more she tries,
the harder you push back
and you don't even realized
that you are doing this.
She tried but she's constantly
missing you.
So continue to invite yourself in,
continue to tantalize her.

Her Infuriated Mind

She still doesn't know if
she's lying to herself or not.
She's been contemplating
about you for days now
since Saturday.
Maybe you shouldn't have
cut your hair.
Maybe you shouldn't have
changed your style.
Because now you caught
her eyes.
She made a promise to herself
not to go back to you,
but that promise might break
if you keep changing the way
you look.
You've got her hooked again and its'
freaking her out.
She doesn't understand if this is another phase
of her crush on you,
or if it's love.
She hasn't cried yet because of you
and her heart hasn't been broken
because of you,
Maybe it's still just a crush.
So STOP what you're doing to her,
if she ever tells you what you're doing to her.

The Lover I Am

I don't really write
about my life. I mean why should I
since it's already in my poems.
But if you should ever
want to learn more about me,
Read my personal description:I'm a lover without a lover with the most complicated love life.

Let's not Tremble Back

Is it wrong to think
about you
after she broke your heart?
She tried to stay away
She tried so hard to keep away
from you
so that her heart, her emotions
wouldn't
fall back in love with you.
But now it seems
all she does now is think about you
She knows she shouldn't
but how can she stop
when you made her laugh?
When she can still feel you gently tapping
her head
away for annoying you?
She broke your heart once
She doesn't want to break it again.
She doesn't want you tangled in her battlefield
where
She fights her own emotions.
She can't do what she wants
She can't figure herself out.
So please just stay away
for now
She'll try hard not to tremble back
to you
to keep you safe from her.
She'll try to keep from being jealous
when you talk
with other girls.
She shouldn't feel jealous in the first place
because it's not in her right anymore
to feel this way
after she hurts you.
So she'll try to stay away
to not tremble back.