She didn't Love You Enough

She loved you,
but she didn't love you enough
to stay with you.
She didn't love you enough
to say to herself that
she was in love with you.
She didn't love you enough
so that's why your in pain
and she's as free
as ever.

Missing Him

She missed him today.
She remembered in the summer
He was always there,
making her laugh,
making her smile,
making her enjoy life itself.
But she couldn't be with him
Because he loved somebody else.
She can't be with him now
because he's not there.
She just misses his company.
She just missed that moment
in her life where they talked
and laughed together.
It was a fun time in her life
until it ended.
She doesn't care if nothing
happens between them.
She just wants her friend back.

He's so Fly

She expected
Him for Thanksgiving,
but he didn't come.
She was so excited the day
before and smiled
the whole way home,
but her heart dropped when
he didn't come.
His brothers came
and brightened my day.
His brothers came
in his place instead.
She found out he went to
Texas.
He didn't say anything about
Texas.
What kind of a friend is he?
When she saw him after church
on Sunday, her heart raced.
It was him, he came back.
She was so happy and he looked
so fly in his outfit.
So fly to the Max.
So she is attracted
to him, her friend.
That's something isn't it?

Flirt

She flirts with him
without really thinking about it.
And he flirts back
without realizing how
it's making her feel.
She likes the way this
relationship is holding out.
She's not going to move
Further with him
because then she might ruin
that relationship.

Incredible

She saw him again
and talked with him again.
Every time they interact,
she loves every single moment.
She doesn't even think
about the other guy that
She had an earlier crush on.
She thinks about him now and the
after feeling was incredible.

Boost Her Confidence

It's nice to know
that there are some guys who thought
her attractive.
It's disturbing, however,
when those guys are hardly
attractive themselves.
Maybe if there was a super hot,
super cool nice guy
who found her attractive
then it might boost her confidence.
To know that she might
be good enough for a god
is satisfying.

He Took Her Breath Away

She swore under her breath,
except she didn't have her breath
because he walked in
and took her breath away.
It was like she knew he was coming
and looked up and there he was.
How she did that she didn't know.
Maybe she saw him
through her peripheral vision.
She knew he were there
so she looked up.
He was wearing the red flannel
over his white v-neck.
She remembered the time he rested
his head on her lap in his red flannel.
It made her day,
but he didn't stay long enough.
She found herself disappointed
but when Sunday comes,
she'll have the chance to see him
if he's there.

The Past is in the Past

I got to say I missed you
But do you honestly think we're cool?
The aching that you put me through
Can never be removed.
It's stuck in my head,
It's stuck in my heart.
Of all the girls in the world,
I thought I was your One.
For you it was so easy
To see me go insane.
You couldn't see me suffering,
You couldn't see my pain.
It's burning me,
It's hurting me,
I see you in my dreams,
But this is how life his.
Love comes and love goes.
I didn't expect for you to throw
Away the love I had for you.
But hey,
I got to say I missed you
And you can think that we're cool,
But we're not.
The past is in the past
It's never going to last.
The past is in the past
Let's leave it at that.

Let's Hope

She wears the chain she asked from him
He gave it to her willingly.
She sees him and remembers
the after feeling.
She sees the other guy and flirts.
She sees him and they talk
about life.
He played with her hand and his pen
today as they talked.
She noticed and she liked it.
Something could happen between them
but let's go slowly.
He's like her brother but
she's attracted.
Could he be attracted?
After all these long years,
or is this just a phase?
It could be a phase but let's hope.
Let's hope that this could
become real.
Let's hope but not too high.
She dreams of hope but hoping can fail dreams.
Let's hope that her dreams don't fail.

Those Times

There's a family picture of her siblings and his,
and she absolutely love it.
It's like their first family picture, but
it's not legit...yet.
He's like her brother
but as she thinks about all
the time they have interacted with each other,
there was the after feeling that maybe
just maybe he's the one.
He just hasn't realized it.
There was that time he asked her
to look after his clothes as he played soccer.
There was that time when she was on the floor watching
a movie and he was right behind her,
She blushed silently because she didn't know he was there.
There was that time when he had
something in his eye and it was irritating him
and she fixed it by blowing it away.
Then there are all of those other times
when she talked to him and our quick remarks
made us laugh.
There was that time today when he said
She was talking about him with my friends and
She had no idea what he was talking about.
It was a hilarious moment, but she still loved it.
She loves his family, and she loves him but...IDK.

To the Love of my Life

Singleness without the loneliness.
What would it be like to be with you,
dear lover?
Right now I am absolutely happy.
I have amazing friends that love me,
I have a family that's supportive,
I'm in programs that's going to help
me build my resumes and personal experiences.
College is a bit overwhelming,
but I figure right now you're not worrying
about that at all.
You're probably figuring out how
to get out of high school.
No pressure though.
I understand.
I guess I'll find you one day.
I'm that kind of person,
I will know you when I know.
Right now I don't know because maybe
I haven't met you yet.
Even if I did meet you,
I haven't let myself be acquainted with you yet.
Chuh,
I haven't let myself be acquainted
with anyone long enough to know.
So I guess when I do know
who you are, dear lover,
I will be a successful young woman
with a higher education than right now.
AND I will be in love
because I will be with you!

Brotherly Love?

He's been like her brother for so many years
but now they're grown,
practically adults,
and she's curious about love.
He put his arm around her shoulders
and confused her.
Was this a brotherly act?
Was this what you would do to a friend
when you've never done such a thing?
He asked for her phone number,
Mixed messages are aroused.
Is there an explanation?
Will he graze her back again?
Will he try to come in contact with her again?
Could it be possible
that this brother of hers
has emerged out of his boyish past?

Life After You

She's got a new beau
except he's only a beau in her mind.
The attraction still applies,
and she hopes for the connection also.
Maybe not a "new" beau
from her history of before,
but more of a returning crush.
You are of no more,
the matter has already been discussed.
Life after you awaits
to spring new hopes, new loves, new experiences.
A therapist at heart
to her favorite best friend
about the lingering thoughts of her beloved.
Two love birds no more because of the
disconnection.
There was no connection between she and you
so life after you awaits,
a life with maybe her new beau.

Disappear

It's easy to make someone
disappear
when you don't take the time to find them.
At first you can't seem to go a day
without them,
you use most of your energy
just to find a way to be with them.
You're tired and frustrated
and then you skip a day
and realize that without them
it's so much easier.
There's no stress, no worries, no one
to take care of except for yourself.
Slowly you forget about them
because being with them hurt you.
You don't want to go back to them.
Being by yourself is much better and it keeps
you from falling.
The one day you will find another
that you can't live without,
that will be the day you know that that person
will change your life, wonderfully.

Sunday Pictures

First Love

It's always the hardest,
It's always the sweetest.
It can never be forgotten
and it's one of the most precious memories in life.
I've heard about it
and I wonder how it feels.
Will it be hard for me or easy?
If it's too easy is that even love?
First love will come for me when it does
I just have to wait.

In Your Eyes

Call me beautiful,
Call me crazy.
Call me everything I am in your eyes.
Call me intelligent,
Call me artistic.
Call me independent,
Call me loved.
Call me joyful, 
Call me an individual
Because that is what I am.
Call me anything you see,
Call me anything that I reflect
Because that will be everything I am in your eyes.

Free

I'm free like a bird riding above the ocean waves
with nothing to stop her
except for natural forces.
I'm free like a summer breeze
riding the edges of the skin of people.
I'm free like the beat of my heart
pumping life into my veins.
I'm free like the speed of light
faster, better, unstoppable.

Want and Need

She really doesn't want you anymore.
She really doesn't need you either.
Truth is
She just wanted to see what kissing was like.
Now that she can say she has kissed a boy
You are not needed.
She didn't realize she was manipulating you.
She didn't realize what she was doing
Until now.
She's analyzing everything between the two of you
and she doesn't get chills anymore.
Her friend says that they get excited
every time they see their lover and
She doesn't get that feeling anymore.
It's frustrating thinking that
she knows what she wants
but it's not what she needs.
She doesn't need you right now at all.
She just needs to be with her and her future.
Your future is not the same as hers.
Your future starts too early for her.
She needs at least a decade more
to get her heart straight
while you already have it figured out.
Now she's going to ruin it
by pulling herself out of your life.
She needs to figure out what she wants to be,
She needs to figure out how she's going
to pay for it.
She needs to figure out herself and it was selfish
of her to drag you in too soon.
She's a selfish being who wants
what's best for her in that moment.
Now that that moment is gone,
She doesn't need you in her life anymore
So she'll just walk away.

Honesty

"Honest to God I will break your heart"-30 Seconds to Mars

She thinks
that she will break your heart again.
She can't seem to talk to you
the way she could to a friend.
She can't find a way to make
you laugh with her.
She finds you boring because you don't do anything
with her, for her, and you don't try
to entertain her.
She can go to sleep without hearing your voice.
She can go a day, a month, a year without seeing you.
She doesn't get chills anymore
when she thinks of your kiss.
She's actually disgusted, there's so much saliva.
Eww.
She never actually acknowledged you,
but you were the first one to proclaim
your love to her.
You never even say that she's beautiful.
She remembers back to the first boy that ever said her smile was beautiful, he was the first boy to hold her hand, he was the first boy to say that she was hot, and he was the first boy that she gently scolded  for calling her hot. Now he's the boy that she's talking to and she can understand him. Instead of telling her friends how she's feeling about you, she's telling him. Maybe she moved too fast with you too, but she wanted somebody to love her and you loved her, but now she's regretting it because maybe she doesn't love you anymore, she never actually loved you she just said she did but didn't actually mean it.
She does that a lot
it's a thing.
But you have to understand
that there isn't really any spark between the two of you.
She doesn't really know how to explain it
except
she already did.

My Birthday

I freakin' hate celebrating my birthday.
I mean it's ok but with financial problems,
my birthday isn't at all important to me anymore.
I'll be 18 so I'm officially an adult tomorrow,
but that doesn't mean I actually am.
I don't want to celebrate my birthday.
Spend the money for my birthday on my 
little brother who wants it way more than me.

Distance

She didn't see you at all today.
She didn't get to talk
to you and see
you smile at her words.
She didn't get to walk with you and
laugh for you,
and she didn't get to be by you.
She was distant and mostly it was
the schedule to blame.
The schedule distant the two of you.

Sleep

She couldn't sleep last night,
She thought of you
And how you
Might feel from what she said.
She couldn't sleep last night,
She missed you
Too much.
You should've gone last night
When
You had the chance
But the two of you were too tired.
It's okay. Everything's okay.
She heard your voice and listened to you.
You told her that she should sleep because
She had to wake up
Early the next morning.
She heard you voice
And she relaxed.
She could sleep now because of you.

Voices

So she learned one thing:
She doesn't like talking
to you
and her friend
at the same time.
She would rather just talk to you and be
yours for the moments.
Too many voices
at too many times are trouble
for her ears.

Maybe

She waits for you as she works.
Thinking
and waiting
only for you.
Wondering if she should call you to come
and visit her as she greets strangers
or
if she should just daydream about you coming to her.
She daydreams that you come in your white car
that she loves you driving so much
and she goes up to you
and hug you
like long lost lovers finally reuniting.
She would wrap her arms around your neck
and whisper
in your ears, "I miss you so much."
She would give you a kiss on the cheek
when she would rather just kiss your lips.
She misses you so much right now
and she misses your lips on hers.
She misses
the hunger you both have for each other
and the late night wake ups so the two of you could meet.
She wanted to see you last night but
the two of you were really tired
and slept
through everything.
Maybe tomorrow she can ask you to visit.
Maybe tomorrow she will ask you
to go to floors 3, 4, and 5
so you
can see all the different kinds of art there are
in the building.
Maybe.

Last Night

Last night she waited for you
to call her
until she slowly fell to sleep.
She wondered why
you didn't call her.
Maybe it was the question she asked:  
Do you like talking to me?
You were surprised
and replied:  
Would I call you if I didn't like talking to you?
Maybe I should just call you once a month now.
She regretted
asking you that and wished deeply
that you didn't take it too seriously.
When you didn't call her
the next night, she worried,
but you were probably asleep.
She was right.
When she saw you the next day,
her worries last night disappeared
because she understood your tiredness.

She and You

For the first time in her life
You were on her mind every single day.
She thinks about you whether she wants to or not.
She thinks about you in a good way.
She dreams
of conversations you could have
with her when you're not with her.
She misses you
because she wants you near her.
She can see
you holding her heart in the palms
of your hands forever until the day that she dies.
She can feel
your lips on hers during your distance.
She wants you, she loves you as much as you do.
She is in love
with you because you are in love with her.
She sees how perfect you are
when everyone else
sees that you're mean, aggressive, and ugly.
She doesn't see you like they do
because love is blind.
She kisses you in the dark,
but what she really wants is to kiss you
where everyone can see.
She doesn't care what people think,
she just wants them to see how much she loves you.
You are hers and she is yours.
You may not be bonded by a ring,
but you are bonded by hope, happiness, and love.

Oh Goodness

I'm sick.

How else do you want me to define it?

I have dryness in my throat and snot in my nose that never seems to go away. I have coldness in my hands that requires warmth, I have paleness of my face, I have redness on my nose, I have the look of disaster when I look in the mirror.

Who wants some hot chocolate? I do.

My Randoms that I Love

1. Toilet Paper
2. Hot Chocolate
3. Empty Frappacino  Bottles
4. My Penny Jar
5. My Dreams
6. My Heart Key Chain
7. Post-it Notes
8. Colorful Ink Pens
9. The Moon
10. Sudoku
11. Towels
12. #14
13. Best Buy
14. Printers
15. My Crooked Feet
16. Marigolds
17. Hearts
18. The Phone
19. Curtains
20. Socks

Bruno Mars...

...is Rockin' my Ears!

My Lips

All my life I have been known to have those gorgeous lips that most every one of my friends wants. Lips are just lips but it's nice to be complimented once in a while.When I am complimented, mostly it's because of my big, full lips. I guess it's nice. NO. I know it's nice. Better for me to kiss someone with. lol:)

My Inspiration

More Typography Stuff

Warmth

At night she dreams
about holding your hand and
sleeping next to you so she can hear
your pounding heart.
She doesn't want
to do anything but be
by you and feel your warmth.
Sometimes she laces
her fingers together and pretend
that it's your hand she's holding.
She saw you today and wanted
so much to run up to you
and wrap her arms around you.
Your shirt looked super soft
and the sweater you had on
kept you from looking cold while
she was freezing
in her light sweater. 

She wants
to be close to you
but you
don't believe in PDA.
She understands.
She wouldn't want
people seeing you together either because
your her secret boyfriend, her bodyguard.
It's ok though.
You know she likes you and
she knows you love her.

I'm a Hopeless Romantic

The title explains all, but these are some reasons why:

I'm a libra, I've always believed in Soulmates, I love romantic movies and I have fun watching romantic comedies. I don't enjoy any kind of books unless there's some love in it. I love fairy tales and happily ever after endings, I believe in love horoscopes, I believe that there's a person out there for everyone. I believe that tiny coincidences are really just signs that lead up to the person you're supposed to be with. I believe in love and have always believed in it since my parents told me to wait for love to come.

My parents believe that love should wait until after education. Chuh. Whatever. I need love from someone else other than my parents and friends and I've waited for it long enough.

I Cannot Live without my Chapstick

Just a moment ago I was freaking out because I just lost my chapstick. There's this thing I have where I need my chapstick to live. Without it, my lips would be freakishly dry and hard to live with. I've never lived long enough without my chapstick but I guess if I didn't have it, I would die. That's how important my chapstick is to me and I love it!

Veronica Mars (my Summer Obsession)

You know how there's that one tv show that you can't live without? Well, for me, it's Veronica Mars. Maybe it's the way she's so super smart and cool and always sarcastic, but I love her!

Ok. It's the way she finds bad guys and throws them into jail and her hot sarcastic boyfriend, Logan.

But she's totally awesome and I'm on Season 3 already in a matter of two weeks. Go Mars!

Beauty in Words

So this is my first blog and I have been photo stalking a lot of photoshopped pictures. Now I don't have photoshop, but I do have Picasa. This is what happened today:

I'm very proud of myself and it looks pretty cool